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Touched today.

2011-11-12T17:10:00.000-08:00

Oh my God, I want to be with this guy so much that I feel my heart is going to explode from my chest. I wanted to say so much more to him although, he knew precisely where my emotions were at; when I told him I had something to say to him and, before I even said anything, he said, "I love you too". He told me how he missed our intimate moments; when he'd pop online from college for a brief glance of my face, a quick log online to say he loved me when the kids were on summer vacation or a stolen few moments enough for a game of dominoes as I missed them too. I could also feel some of his pain when he said he feels as though I need/could be getting more of what I deserved if I didn't have him in my life. But what does it mean when they say that? Is it a nice way of saying, I'm sorry but I feel that I somehow shouldn't be in your life anymore? This was actually 'before' he told me that he loved me too, besides however, he told me several times today, that he loved me. Happy as I am for his comfort and happiness, why did I feel a little 'left out' after I called him at work to discover that he was also watching a horror film with his friend while still chatting with me on Facebook? Some days, I truly feel as though I'm just not seeing the full picture. Whatever happened to the Saturdays when he'd ask me to turn on my Facebook cam so that he could see my face and watch me throughout the day? Whatever happened to the guy who would literally order me to go in the cloakroom to play and cum for him? I can truly say that I believe his wife is so fucking lucky just to have his hand hold hers as he lies beside her. I would even give so much, just to be able to say a last "goodnight" to him before closing my eyes to sleep. There is so much more I want to add here but I really must close down the pc for today and maybe I can continue in a few hours. Wishing you a gnight my love and pleasant dreams.

Today's Sprinkling of Fairy Dust...

2011-11-10T17:20:00.000-08:00

Oh for utter fuck's sake, I did it again. I opened my soul and told him he was my better half, my twin flame, the one and only true love of my life and I needed him. This was just a few minutes before we were saying 'ttfn' for a few hours while he went home and, until we were more than likely going to see each other online again tomorrow. Yet, the response I received again from him, left such a cold hole: "Alright, I'm going home now and I'll talk to you later my dear" prompted me to send an email to his cell, to which I never actually received a reply. Once upon a time, this huge soul barely played a single role in my life but now, not a single day rolls by, without this heart of his providing an all-important rhythm.

2010-09-30T08:08:00.001-07:00

ONCE UPON A TIME, SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME, IT WAS THE SWEETEST THING THAT COULD EVER BE ~ A FANTASY, A DREAM COME TRUE, IT WAS THE DAY I MET YOU! ... xx http://amplify.com/u/bhgb

2010-08-02T03:51:00.001-07:00

I BELIEVE THAT THE LONGER WE ENJOY THE GIFTS OF LIFE THAT GOD HAS GIVEN.... THE MORE EACH DAY REVEALS TO US THE HAPPINESS OF HEAVEN!

Happy Monday to all my dear friends. ............. x x x http://amplify.com/u/896p

2010-08-01T12:14:00.001-07:00

.... BELIEVES THAT, NO AMOUNT OF DARKNESS CAN HIDE A SPARK OF LIGHT.

Happy 1/8/10 to all my bright sparks. ....................... x ♥ x http://amplify.com/u/88kd

2010-07-31T03:34:00.001-07:00

says, LUV ONLY COMES, ONCE IN A WHILE..... KNOCKS ON YOUR DOOR, THROWS U A SMILE..... TAKES EVERY BREATH, LEAVES EVERY SCAR..... IT SPEAKS 2 YOUR SOUL & SINGS 2 YOUR http://amplify.com/u/87ih

2010-07-30T02:18:00.001-07:00

says, no matter how you feel one day, keep strong as the sun will always rise again & the next day could be filled with joy & good-times once again.

Oh Joy! .... It's Friday; have fun my dear friends and laugh in2 the face of darkness. ........... x http://amplify.com/u/86if

2010-07-29T08:04:00.001-07:00

‎...exercises daily; running from the devil & walking with the Lord ......✞

Back in now from this morning's run & sending out Babsi luv 2 yall 4 a thrilling Thursday! ... ..

x ♥ x http://amplify.com/u/85qi

2010-07-28T03:31:00.001-07:00

‎'s TIP OF THE DAY: Struggling to do your exercise???

Do it early in the morning, before your brain figures out what the hell is going on!!!

Happy Wednesday my lovelies! ................ ♥ http://amplify.com/u/84d7

2010-07-27T03:46:00.001-07:00

... blieves life is about ignoring the drama, laughing with and loving friends & family, and being happy with what u have.

I'm happy & I hope u r too! ... x ♥ x http://amplify.com/u/837c

A peek into 'My World'

2010-07-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

This Takes Me Back a Decade or Two!

2010-05-29T10:28:00.000-07:00

Close your eyes ...... And go back in time.

...... Before the internet and DVD. Before semi-automatics machine guns, joyriders and crack...... Before SEGA or Super Nintendo.

....... Way back... ...

I'm talking about Hide-and-Seek in the park. The corner shop, Hopscotch, butterscotch, skipping, handstands, football with an old can, Bulldog, Beano, Twinkle and Roly Poly, Hula Hoops, jumping in enormous puddles and building dams.

The smell of the sun and freshly-cut grass, Bazooka Joe bubble gum and an ice-cream cone on a warm summer night from the van that plays a tune - 99's, screwballs or a cider lolly.

Wait......

Watching Saturday morning cartoons & short commercials; Sesame Street, Road Runner, Scooby Doo, Magic Roundabout, Bagpuss and Mr Benn. Staying up late to watch The Twilight Zone, Tales of the Unexpected, Prisoner: Cell Block H, St Elsewhere or Tenko. When around the corner seemed far away and going into town, actually seemed as though you were going somewhere.

A million mosquito bites, wasp and bee stings, sticky fingers, cops & robbers, cowboys & indians, Zorro, climbing trees, building igloos from just tiny amounts of snow. Walking to school, whatever the weather. Running till you were out of breath. Laughing so hard until your tummy hurt. Jumping on the bed, pillow fights, spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for the giggles.

Being tired from playing........... Remember that?

When the worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team. It was just unbelievable, that dodge-ball wasn't an Olympic event. Water balloons were the ultimate weapon, and football cards in spokes transformed any boy's bike into a motorcycle.

I'm not finished just yet......

Eating raw jelly and drinking orange squash, Dandelion & Burdock or smashing a frozen Jubbly against a wall so that you could suck out the mushy orange-flavoured ice through a corner of the packaging.

Remember when ...

There were 2 types of trainers - girls and boys? Dunlop Green Flash and the only time you wore them at school was for gym. You knew everyone on your street - and so did your parents!
It wasn't odd to have 2 or 3 'best' friends. You didn't sleep a wink on Christmas Eve. When nobody owned a pure-bred dog. When 25p was decent pocket money. When you'd reach into a muddy gutter for 10p or reach down the back of the sofa for every denomination of small change. When nearly everyone's mum was at home when the kids returned from school. And, it was pure magic when dad would 'remove' his thumb.

When it was considered a great privilege to be taken out to dinner at a real restaurant with your parents. When any parent could discipline any kid, ask him/her to carry groceries or just feed them and nobody, not even the kid, thought a thing of it.

When being sent to the head's office was nothing compared to the fate that awaited a misbehaving student at home. Basically, we were in fear for our lives, but it wasn't because of drive-by shootings, drugs. And, some of us are still afraid of them!!

Didn't that feel good?

Just to go back and say, yeah, I remember that!

Remember when .... decisions were made by reciting 'eeny-meeny-miney-mo'.
'Race issue', was simply an argument about who ran the fastest. Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in Monopoly. The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was germs, and the worst point in your day was perhaps having to sit next to one. But, nobody was prettier than your Mum. Scrapes and bruises were kissed and always made better.

Having a weapon in school, meant being caught with a catapult. Taking drugs meant orange-flavoured chewable aspirin. Ice-cream was considered a basic food group. Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true. Abilities were discovered because of a 'double-dare' and, older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors.

If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!!!

Pass this on to anyone you may think needs a break from their 'grown-up' life...

I DOUBLE DARE YA!!